January 11, 2010

A nice winter snow.

Cold but soo much fun.

She would rather be behind the four wheeler going

fast, than have me pull her slowly and out of breath.

Grandma playing with Avea on Christmas 2009

Santos going in for the smoochy

Nana and Santa

Aveas Godmother Aunt Diana and Avea

Avea and her godfather Uncle Bud

Yeah it was a setup, but a good one!

Santos and Avea just love each other

The only way she was getting near HIM!!

She actually squealed when she seen this.

Uncle Kevin showing her her new puppy.

Grandma and Grandpa The whole clan

Can you imagine that many Kids!!

The happy family

All of the cousins!!

Grandma going in for a smooch!!!

The best smile in the world

Uncle Keith and Avea, not EVER looking at the camera at the same time.

Getting ready to leave for Christmas at Grandma and Grandpas

Beautiful christmas baby!

Loving the four wheeler already!! SHe even has to sit on it while warming up. Making cutout cookies with mama!!

Looking like she's posing!! NOT it was ATTITUDE she did not want to pose for the Christmas cards. We got some great pictures later in just her diaper and a santa hat. I thought I had better not send them out.

This little girl makes my heart SMILE!!!

I entered this picture along with four others on here

into the GAP casting call. Only 800,000 applicants

and she was not picked. ARE THEY NUTS!!!!

NOVEMBER 17th is here!!

Today is the day that we became a family. It was a rough day, but sooooo worth it. I will never forget that day. It wasn't the first time that I saw her, but it was the first day that I had seen her FOREVER. SHe looked at me like I was a stranger, I looked at her like I had known her forever. I can't explain it, she was in Azucena's arms sucking a bottle, head cocked back, eyes wide open looking at me like who are you. It was like she knew exactly what was going to happen, and was just waiting. I tried talking to Avea, but she did not like it at all. So I left her in Azucena's arms. I knew that I should wait for Azucena to be ready to give her to me. It had to be hard for her. I know that she loved Avea sooooo much. Finally Azucena made the sign of the cross over her, and said some things in spanish and handed her over to me forever. The tears were falling from my eyes, Mikes eyes, the Foster grandmas, and foster cousins were all crying. It was so hard but then so wonderful. She just handed me my baby forever. Our hearts will never be what they were, they will be better, we just learned what love REALLY is.

This day I will always cherish. I will always think of Azucena and her family, for loving our little peanut so much, taking such good care of her, and then handing her to me in such a strong way.

This day I will always remember Avea's birthmom Milagro. I will thank her forever, for making me such a perfect beautiful little girl. Giving her up selflessly so that she can have a better life. For making us the LUCKIEST people alive. I just don't get how we can be so lucky. Thank you Milagro, you are wonderful and I wish I could tell you that.

Thank You Avea, you are my heart!!!